Gratitude

I am due for a gratitude blog.  Part of this journey’s success has been stopping periodically and thanking God for all the good stuff. I am grateful that I have insurance that pays for all my medical surrounding this condition. To be facing this journey basically 1 year and 4 months from my oldest being able to have a driver’s license.  I have wonderfully supportive friends and family who have stood by and believed in me. New World Sports in Fort Collins who sponsor tandem rides once a month for those of us with low vision.  I am grateful for my support group in Fort Collins @ Ensight Skills. The people I have met along the way on this journey. To have a low vision clinic like Ensight Skills and their knowledgeable staff that helps me figure out all these resources and programs that are available.  Seriously, I don’ know what I would do if I lived in a community without a low vision clinic.  All the materials, resources, contacts, and help I have received has been priceless.  I used to spend 10-12 hours in a day studying when I was in college and I would feel pretty exhausted.  Today, I feel that exhausted after about an hour of concentrated effort on anything.  I know some day that stamina will come back, but in the meantime I am glad for all the assistance. I am thankful that my tools are ordered and I will be able to start moving forward on retraining myself to read faster and more efficiently.  I was reminded today of when my dad was first diagnosed with cancer.  Someone told me that God will give me the strength to walk through his death, when he dies and not a minute sooner.  In other words, God doesn’t give you the strength to walk through the “not yet”, “what if”, or anything that isn’t true.  That comforted me today because I have had a lot of anxiety about “what about the day I am told I can’t drive”.  Well that day isn’t today.  I don’t know if and when that day will come and ultimately, if that day comes, when it is true, God will send the help I need and for that I am eternally grateful.